
For those of you who may not know, I am a multiple credentialed nurse practitioner currently practicing high-risk pediatrics for our local hospital. Life can take a fast dramatic, life altering turn at any moment. I am constantly reminded of the very fragility of life and the deep gift of each day. I never know what will happen when I walk through the door or when the phone rings.  Here at the hospital, there is no place happier on the planet when things go well and there are few sadder when they do not. For the first eighteen years of practice, I did not know how to handle the stress. I simply carried it in my body. I was SO serious, the perfect example of how not to do it!
I know, all too well, we are all here on this planet for only so many minutes, hours, days, months, and sometimes years. I like the priest in the movie Rudy have learned two things from working here: 1. There is a God and 2. I am not Him. When you work with children, you learn they play even in the midst of unthinkable pain. They smile, laugh, and joke. They can make a toy and game of almost anything. After years of watching, I have learned to relax and trust. I am in no way cavalier. I practice expert, evidence based, medicine and include the parents in my decisions. I have contagious quiet joy with me wherever I go.
If you were to follow me around all day you would find me talking happily to my patients, their siblings, and parents. I am gentle and cheerful with the staff. Should you happen into my office you might be surprised to see amidst the text books and photos, a group of toys, strategically placed up on the bookshelf at eye level so I can see them. There is a can of purple silly putty, an orange bouncy ball, a yellow rubber duck, a slinky, and white bunny finger puppet. There are also a few rocks I have collected while out on walks to clear my brain and a sea shell or two. Front and center you will see half or a board I broke last year with JB, Billy Beck III and my morning coach compadres. If you turn on my ipad you will find all the medical apps and of course games and puzzles. These are my reminders. You do not quit playing because you get old, you get old because you quit playing.
I know how to play and love it. Do you? Do you take yourself or your life too seriously?  Take it from one who did for years and paid a high cost. It just “ain’t” worth it! Look at me, the grandmother of ten!
So how did I do it?
I became more like my patients
I learned to be child-like
I made peace with God and myself
I realized (gasp) I am not perfect (never will be)
I rediscovered I love toys
I love to play
I love to turn the music up really loud and dance and sing
Now it is your turn:
Lighten up!
So buy some toys!
Turn up those cheesy old songs that make you laugh
Get outside even if you need foul weather gear like we do.
Play!!!
This is the only shot we get at this life.
Have some fun.
Find it in the least likely of places!
One last thing should you find a motorcycle jut sitting there with a cute French Air Force Officer near by in Paris, ask him if you could hop on! Need any hints? Contact me!
Grace and peace,
Lori
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As a physical therapist for well over 20 years, I have treated thousands of people who come into the office in physical pain. Some have recently begun to have pain and that’s why they went to the doctor in the first place and others have been in pain for many months or many years and have been to many doctors seeking a solution to their pain. It has been fascinating to observe how people handle pain, understand pain, process pain and view it in the overall scope of their life. At least once a day I hear a patient say, “No pain, no gain.” Â It’s interesting to see how common that viewpoint is in our society. But there are different types of pain and reasons for pain that shouldn’t be lumped into a single simple saying.
or providing a resource to someone in need. This form of helping definitely provides assistance and is beneficial, but there is also another form of helping that is effective, positive role modeling.

When I was younger I made bad decisions based on the influence of the so called “friends” I kept in my life. Looking back now I can see how these friends were in my life because of the way I saw myself and I manifested these relationships.  I attracted these people because of my diminished self-esteem.  I kept myself trapped in the perpetual cycle of victimhood.  I knew I had to make a change in my life because I intuitively knew I wanted better. It was one of the hardest decisions I made; letting these “friends” go.  As it turned out, it was the best choice. I started working on my personal growth. Moving forward with a changed positive attitude, with a heart full of forgiveness and accepting responsibility for my destructive behavior.  Letting go of the past and living in the present moment with love and kindness toward myself and with others. I evolved through my self-exploration and changed my limiting beliefs, old patterns and became a strong confident person.  Is there someone in your life who is not contributing or supporting you moving forward?
